Of all things… my fish

I feel like this is an odd one, since most people in here post their furry friends… this one has hit me hard though. It’s only been a day and anytime I walk in my room and see my fishy’s empty tank I feel like screaming and crying and throwing up. I’m so angry. I’m so sad. I thought things in my life were finally getting better, and then I lose one of the most important things in my life. It’s all so unfair. I would start and end my day seeing my sweet little fishy’s face, and now nothing. I feel guilty not noticing he was sick faster, I feel like of all people I should have noticed. I don’t know how I’m going to get through this. My face and head hurts from crying. I can’t tell if I’m overreacting because he was a fish of all things but I feel like I just lost something so precious and dear and important to me and my heart hurts so bad. I feel lucky I have my cats to give me some sort of purpose still. I don’t know how a little fish with such a big personality got me through these hard past couple months, but he gave me so much to live for and I hope he was happy with me. I feel so ridiculous but I also feel so empty and in pain right now. I feel like I’m in a nightmare… I miss my sweet baby so much. I wish I could go back in time and do everything I could to prevent this so I could have more time with him.