Does anyone else just watch pregnancy announcements and make themselves feel worse?

I’m on my 8th cycle and halfway through it for my 4th transfer. My partner is away for work and I’m home alone just scrolling TikTok pregnancy reveals and announcements and I’m just wishing that would be me announcing it to my family one day.

It’s been over a year now of back to back IVF cycles with no success. I’m 37 in September and still waiting for my first baby and I’m the oldest sibling while the youngest has a kid.

I’m starting to feel like it might never happen for me. I hope this 4th transfer actually works. Idk how much longer I can handle this and of course financially.

I’ve had 2 egg retrievals (1st was untested and 2nd we tested and have 6 euploids) did 1 hysteroscopy and biopsy which they didn’t find anything. I have pcos, high amh and struggle to ovulate without medication.

I had 2 family pregnancy announcements in the same week. I’m just sad but hiding it from people and I even don’t like to cry in front of my partner.

I watch these pregnancy announcements because they’re such a happy moment but then I get sad thinking it might not ever be me.