Long story short, I've had no interest in sex for a year a and a half now. I have no idea WHY? I'm (F26) married to the man of my dreams (M27) and our relationship is good but I just feel so bad declining him every time he asks. He's also like.. really really attractive. Like we get free shit at the bar because the waitress thinks he's hot level of attractive. Like WAAAY out of my league. 

We used to freak like crazy, definitely 4-5 times a week and sometimes multiple times a day and then one day I just... went numb down there? 

He doesn't pressure me, he doesn't make it a big deal or make me feel bad for it but jesus how much can the poor man take? He doesn't go to porn or resort to cheating or anything and rarely jerks off and when he does he politely tells me "Hey I'm gunna spank it in the bathroom real quick."

I also keep seeing all these posts on reddit about how "Sexual incompatibility is a valid reason for divorce" and that scares the ever living shit out of me. I've been sick with some undiagnosed issues since I got covid and haven't worked since 2020 but he's so amazing and takes such good care of me but the thought of him leaving and making me homeless because I can't get a lady boner is my worst nightmare. 

I cant go to sex therapy because I have no access to that and money is tight alot of the time so I was thinking maybe supplements but I don't even know of those are real or just a money grab. 

God I hate this. I JUST WANT TO BE HORNY FOR MY BEAUTIFUL HUSBAND!

Anyways baller ass Tofu and Beef Pho with Shrimp Spring Rolls and peanut sauce and husband got the Chef Special Fried Rice with Pork, Shrimp and Chicken. ❤️ (That he lovingly took me to and didn't expect a BJ from me in return because he's just amazing like that!)

I desperately need to get my libido back.