I am so attracted to Clavicular

I am a woman like ten years older than him -_-
lol
AI says it’s because we’re both possibly neurodivergent (autistic to be specific) and that I keep having daydreams about being in his arms and feeling comforted by it and so attracted to him in a sensual tender way like I just feel like he would be tender with me, AI says that means I am attracted to a low-arousal, high-connection dynamic. Hey maybe it’s right. Maybe that’s what I really need.

Do I know who he is? Yes. I know he’s a bad horrible person. Unfortunately I also, like many other adults, see his vulnerabilities and how sad he looks. I’m not excusing his bad sides. I’m simply psycho analyzing why I find imagining being with him comforting.

I would breastfeed him. -_-

It’s funny because idk why I’m attracted to his vulnerability (also his autism maybe), which suggests I want to breastfeed/nurture him, but also find myself truly comforted imagining being in his big arms and feeling his energy and his emotional energy. It’s not me looking for a guy to nurse. No. I am traditional minded in relationships. I truly am attracted because I believe HE can nurture me just by being his quiet self just there holding me and being intimate with me.

I tend to be aroused usually by imagining a daddy figure who disciplines me. Do I think Clavicular would discipline me? Idk. I truly think he would be so unexplainable comforting to my soul.