Should I get another BA surgery?

OK, I got my first breast documentation with Kaiser North California.

It was so hard for me to be approved so I guess a second time I won’t be approved.

I’m very very depressed right now. My breasts are full of a stretch marks. I can’t even show that, I cry every time I see my breast, they look horrendous on top of that. They are super small. They’re not even big, I have to wear push-up bras to make them look like boobs. I’m like on the same stage as before when I did not have the breast augmentation I used to have a lot of push-up bras to make them look like breast and you know to pretend

and now I’m doing the same because the boobs are super small even though I got 490 cc they’re still super small. They don’t stick out if I wear a dress with a regular bra or without one I look flat, they look like a pecks on my chest. I don’t know if it’s my body that is too masculine.

I don’t know what’s going on, but I’m very depressed. I don’t like my my body. I don’t like my chest, my chest to me looks very masculine.

It looks like very small and on top of that full of a stretch marks that I cannot get rid of with anything. I’m giving up honestly!

What should I do? Get another surgery out of pocket? I was saving for bbl and rib remodeling or just leave it like that? What’s the point to have inside of you two dangerous devices if you don’t even like them?