I'm so pissed off the "best years" of my life were spent grinding on working and college, instead of young love

Your teens and early 20s are supposed to be the best years of your life, but since I have failing parents, I had to grind my whole teen and early 20s, just to afford college and also grinded all my way through college, while I missed out on relationships, having a partner, etc. Sure, I made some life long friends but the fact that I will just continue to get older and not younger and everyone else will get a full time job, marry, have children, etc, while I didnt even experience love, gets full on my nerves. I definitely do not want to find the love of my life in corporate, I wanted it to be either highschool or university but couldn't connect with anyone, specially being in Germany.

I'm do not want to get married or have kids at all, neither became a corporate slave, I definitely want a loving girlfriend and do dumb stuff together like we are carefree.