What is this? Laziness? Or am I being a jerk?

Where I Was (Rock Bottom)

I was a college student completely falling apart — always sad, no energy to get out of bed, failing subjects, glued to my phone, overeating, isolating, and feeling like I'd lost myself entirely.

Who I Used to Be

I was studious, had good looks, a decent sense of humor, and a real social life.

Where I Am Now

I've pulled myself partway out. I have energy again. I have some will to do things. That's not small — that's actually hard to do, and I did it.

What's Still Broken

Loneliness is hitting hard

Motivation exists but feels weak, not driven

Sadness still visits every couple of days

I still don't feel like myself physically

The change happened after i started to talk with people, actually a girl got that change in me

It is me being lazy

Or jerk,

No cope or anything, just tell me the trurh