DAE, end up Hurting Themselves because you believed the Lie that you were just a Lazy, Incompetant, Worthless , Evil POS if you werent 1000% working your Ass off to pay off some sort of Debt to the World for Existing as Such a worthless burdensome person if you EVER asked for Help?

I'm suffering from some physical issues, that I essentially did to myself, from learning to work myself until I broke, far beyond my capabilities.........as a child.......like a slave. .....because of some bullshit toxic belief that I had no inherent self worth unless I was working myself to death. Ask you to do something, they couldnt do, but never acknowledge that they asked you, and that you did do what they asked, better than they could have, but it still didnt matter.

Even though no matter how hard I worked it was never enough.

Even though no matter how perfect it was, I still deserved nothing, and told to work harder.

Even though comparatively other people were better, no matter what I did.

Even though I was the only one in my family to get a Degree, no one ever acknowledged that.

Even though I was the only one in my family to be able to work the way I worked, while not having a car and supporting myself...........no one spoke of it-Ever.

Even though I could run 5-7 miles , when I was training for , idk, combat manuevers , the perfect body, whatever ............no one ever acknowledged that either, ever.