Scared about my relationship

i hate to say this but im terrified that my relationship is not going to last.

Im femme and have been dating my butch partner for about a year and he has been the best person ever. But in about 10 days he will have to leave for his job and the next time we will meet will probably be in February. I'm not a person who does well w distance and we have been having so many unnecessary fights recently. Even though we always sit down and solve it. I'm afraid this wont be easy when he is off at his job. Unfortunately, i dont have that many friends and i am kind of depressed so im scared at some point there will be a lot of outbursts he will be a victim off. I am self aware. I know im wrong. But i want this relationship to last so badly. He is probably the best thing in my life. He is such a fun person, he is so social and the life of the room. And im terrified of going back to feeling the same loneliness i felt as a child.