Am I the ass hole

I (20) M her (19) F have been on and off for about a year ever since I met her I’ve seen we are both over sexual and we’ve talked about me cumming in her since I stopped jerking off.

After i cream-pied someone already I don’t think I could could not do it again it felt so good for the first time I emptied my balls when having sex.

Also when I asked her can I cum in her I found out she’s on birth control so I told her when your not ovulating you should let me cum in you and she keeps saying yes then no

For context she’s been saying over the phone that she would let me cum in her as much as I want then in person when I said I want my first orgasm in 5 months to be inside you not only was it not in her she was giving me head and she said she didn’t even want to try to taste it so it went all over me

Personally I hate eating pussy but I ate it so 1 I can do something she said no one else could 2 if I can’t nut in her I can at least nut In her mouth but no

Am I the ass hole for wanting to do it