23M Honestly just feeling extremely alone in this world and people just like what I can do and provide but not me

TL;DR Honestly just heading home from seeing someone that I was going to pursue romantically but honestly beyond hurt and feeling extremely alone. The first time I bused out to go see her and stayed the night I stayed up all night being there for her, and listening to what she’s been through. The whole entire I’m engaging actively and going above and beyond to support her. This whole entire time she hasn’t asked me a single question about me or anything like that. I try and relate and tell her about my life but cuts me off immediately I brushed it off because she was struggling. That morning she tells me she really likes me and appreciates me being there for her.

So last evening she asked me to come out so I took an hour and half ride bus home. I was having an extremely rough day and had voiced it over text, but she didn’t even acknowledge it or ask why I was having a rough day. I thought maybe she would ask about it in person. She seemed excited to see me, and I was looking forward to having a chill movie night, I bought her dinner and even made her bed. But this whole time she’s talking about her struggles/trauma dumping the worst things she’s been through and I know how it feels to have nobody to care. So I listen and try to engage but she cuts me everytime I respond to what she’s saying. Only want me to agree to what she’s saying.

At this point she’s been talking and it’s 1:30am now and I’ve been here since 6pm and hasn’t asked me anything, even how I’m doing. At this point I’m feeling beyond alone… we haven’t even watched a movie, eventually I start getting tired and honestly extremely sad, so I start to fade off and she shakes me and is like wake up… so I keep myself awake but I’m so checked out… she keeps going on about her life struggles but, honestly I’m beyond struggling, eventually I tell her I love being here for you and love talking to her. But I’m like you haven’t even asked about my day… she freaks out and she’s like I’m just struggling and I’m like I understand you are but your also not the only one struggling. So she aggressively goes on how rough life.

Eventually I get out of the bed and the emotions have taken over and I’m like I genuinely am going to leave I’m really not okay, and she’s like you need let go of your pain, and goes on about her life more, and at this point I’m crying extremely bad and I break down saying I don’t think anyone cares about me and she like nobody cares about her and how rough she has it. I tell her I’m really not okay and she goes on how she’s been so much but doesn’t even care why I’m upset. She begs me to get back in the bed so I decide to cuddle and this whole time I’m holding in my tears and she’s still going on and on about her life.

Yes I’m not proud of breaking down but I spend every single day alone and don’t have a family or any real friends. But that day I was .EXTREMELY struggling and I have dealt with person after person that only talks about themselves or I ask them so many questions wanting to get to know them but they don’t want to know me. It’s this pattern over and over and I’m very extrovert and empathetic and talkative but find I’m constantly there for others but find nobody wants to be there for me or even ask how my day is. Sorry if this poorly written it’s written on bus after only getting 3-4 hours of sleep🙃(idk if I’m very sensitive but I’m exhausted of feeling so alone in this world)