An unintentional accident caused me damage

When I (46f) was 16 I had multiple boyfriends in high-school but I never went further than normal teenage stuff therefore most of them got bored with me that way and I was upset about it at that time but still I cared about my values and boundaries, I always had friends which would get me to sneak out with them at midnight going to party and drinking but they didn't needed any id's to prove if they were adults which they weren't because they had a thing with the door supervisors, it was a habit for us on weekends and we would drive cars without drivers license but not get caught because we had a friend that actually had one but the problem was she got very intoxicated one night and we needed to get back home i tried to wait for an hour thinking she would sober up but it only made our time shorter and it was 12am then I agreed to drive us home since it was just 3 of us and the other 2 was intoxicated, as I was driving I didn't know anything about speed or such stuff but I knew the lights and luckily the speed limitations were free of cops moderation and I became more focused on getting home but suddenly we struck something and almost drove over it i thought it was some deer i got out to check it and might had an intention of moving it out of the way but it was a human, was facing down while the upper body was only visible, the blood and the overall situation made me sick but I knew I couldn't let the 2 intoxicated girls knew so I turned off the flashlight of the car which took me some time and had to drag the body alone because still was paranoia about them remembering what happened after sobering up, before i coukd drive off i saw a girl hakf naked from the distance watching me she didn't speak but but her private part diwn there was bleeding i didn't understand but she thanked me for saving her, i offered to drive her but she refused and then someone strucked her from behind and stabbed her in the throat multiple times i was so scared i drove off but still I got away and the car had a small dent I didn't had time to do anything so I dropped the girls at their home and I successfully returned the car to the girl's boyfriend and ran back to home but I couldn't sleep at all the following Monday morning I was absent from school to regain my sleep, I wasn't the same before because I felt horrible and anything that happened last night felt unreal overwhelming, hearing the news mentioning it on the radio while my father was driving me to school made me more frightened, it took me weeks and months to process my emotions when I turned 17 and was about to graduate high-school i started receiving emails from an anonymous person sending me threats and and asking why I unalived a person along with sending me pictures of me and the others getting in the car, i was worried if it was the person that unalived the girl that one tragic night and i was scared if they had evidence about the accident, but during the time they would send me emails it was just pictures of me going to school or threats, and the emails turned into notes on our front door and then on my dad's car which made it worse, after all that it turned into stalking when I would see a man following me at night but not on day, I was so scared I asked my parents to send me to my grandma so I could live with her and I did and suddenly I didn't encounter any on that ever again until i left for college and at my first year of there while i was away my grandmother got unalived even when i had an exam i still got back at her place and the police questioned me if we faced any threats but i could only keep it confusing and told me they found threats notes on her dead corpse i was devastated and got back and returned to my college for the rest of the year i didn't face any new problems and i got married with my high-school classmate, he was the kind of person that could go unnoticed for a long time there, but he was more charming than I thought and I got pregnant at 2010 and gave birth to a daughter, our life was normal and we were happy with it until my husband started getting weird towards my daughter after her puberty and I couldn't believe it but seeing my daughter describe his acts when it was just 2 of them at home made me sick to my stomach from relieving himself infront of her and stuff, and everything was just vividly upsetting, I decided to move my daughter to my sister's house until I keep this situation under control with divorcing when he found my plan he got physical and I remembering thinking is this real, I immediately took him to court at pressed charges with clear evidence and with a lawyer that was my sister's husband who offered to help, my husband was sentenced to 5 years in jail for p*dophilia and domestic violence with other women and CP found in his devices i apparently didn't know about, after he served his sentence he got out and wasn't the same he wanted to get close back at my daughter but I straight out refused and called the cops on him showing up on my front door and then he stopped it all, one day I got an emergency call from the school principal about my daughter being shot to the way back home and it was only her targeted and she was rushed to the hospital I sped all the way to there but my daughter couldn't make it it was the worst day of my life the police investigated starting with my ex first suspect but they didn't have any clear evidence even after doing their best, months passed and the one was caught it was a man in his 30s after questioning enforcement he gave out information about my ex involved in drugging shipment and him getting payed to murder multiple people which lead to a lot of people being discovered most of them got sentence to life, and the insurance money was given to me, 5 weeks ago I was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and today im in my deathbed wishing to be either my daughter in the after life.