Atp am i jealous of them?🙃

So it's Abt my 10th classmates... More like the top 2 girls who were competition to me...

One of them took pcm but she decided to discontinue bcoz she realised her interest was in fashion designing... She gave NID DAT(for those who dont know it's for national institute of design entrance)... And she got an amazing rank in it..

Other one also took pcm and honestly fell in relationships and other trap and wasted 2 yrs... Jee gone... But in my state entrance she got 4k rank which gives her a very very good college

And the thing Abt them is they use all the social media, have bfs, basically lived their best life these 2 yrs and got amazing results at last ..

And here I am a no.1 loser 🙃....i took pcb and decided to appear for neet... honestly its not gonna happen bro... atleast before 3rd may I used to study , atleast look at my books...right now all I'm doing is scrolling...not even looking at my books for a second...I can barely focus for 30 minutes...and honestly if this continues , i'll just be loser again...and atp when I am seeing them I feel soo happy for them but at the same time I get a constant fear of what I'll be doing with my life

I gave my state entrance too...I got 2k rank...I'll get good colleges for other courses too (btech biotech, vet , agri, etc)....but that's not even what i want 🙃

I scored 430 marks it was my 1st attempt...and now I got a golden chance to improve...and even my state cutoff is low (2025-407) (2024- 520)...if im not able to this too...then honestly I'm a failure...you guys are working really hard for 600+...and I'm not even putting efforts for 500+🙃

To people who are scoring 500....please give me suggestions on how do you score it?