i did something bad to my brothers

Confession nr.1
i have a brother that is six years younger than me. when we were younger he liked to sleep with me and i molested him while he was sleeping. i don’t want to get into details but he don’t know about it because he never waked up because of it. i was extremely dumb and i regret every part of it. i was maybe 14 when this happend so he was 8. i don’t know what was going theu my head then but i know whatever it was, it wasn’t normal.

confession nr.2
i have a cousin of the same gender as mine that is a year younger than me and we had sex couple of times when we were younger. i think that the first time happend when i was 10. every part of it was consensual on both sides. it lasted couple of years maybe till i was 13. he is my best friend and we talk like nothing ever happend but the guilt is killing me.

i feel terrible with both of those things. now when i’m older i would never touch a child or thing about anything sexual with them.