Breadwinner’s horror story

My parents failed with their decisions in life. There was no back up. I am the back up plan. Because I care, I put myself into this.
I was once like this. Until I decided to moveout from my own house. I still pay their bills, water, internet, (amelyar, hoa dues)- kasi bahay ko yun. around 5500 total. Nothing beyond that, kahit nagpaparinig na kelangan ganito gnyan, hnd na ako namamansin, pinipigilan ko na sarili ko. They don’t even see the bills, it was all done through online. Kapatid ko naman sa gamot nilang aroung 10k a month pinapadala.

Why? This is how I honor them.
That is because I do it for the Lord. Walang work ang mama at papa ko. Pumisan pa sa kanila yung kuya kong walang trabaho.

Pero I still felt unseen. Sabi ko last mother’s day vacation kami, sagot ko food, accommodations my parents were all excited untilI told them baka pwde lambingin yung kapatid kong nasa Dubai na sya na lang sa Gas. Kasi may Gc kami sa messenger.

Biglang sabi ng parents ko, wag na magastos pala yan.

Pag ako gagastos OK LANG? pang gas nga lang ilalambing biglang ang caring?

Ako ba marami din akong gastos pero gusto ko sana mag enjoy sila kasama din kami.

Kaya minsan kahit naiisip ko sila. Mas gusto ko na lang na kami na lang ng pamilya ko ang umaalis, hindi na dila kasama.
MALI BA AKO? Ako may gusto nito e!

Amuuin nyo ako. Wag nyo na ko awayin! Wala na nga akong kakampi!