Am I The Bridezilla?!

Just came back from my Bach and now I am wondering am I the bridezilla?

So for my Bach, my Bridesmaid and I rented an air b n b. While the weekend was fun, some elements were very stress.

The most stressful part was being constantly rushed about getting ready faster. At one point, I (the bride) wasn’t ready yet- had even started my make up and was then told you have 5 minutes left so we could take pictures. I told them there was no way I was gonna be ready in 5 minutes and I felt like I was a little snappy. I was so stressed out, because I didn’t even think we had to leave for another 15 minutes. I wish I had take my time cause during dinner I had to run back to the air b n b and grab something I forgot (this was more on me though).

The next day, when I wasn’t out the door fast enough- they honked at me multiple times… I even told them just to leave and I could uber there. To put in perspective, I had a lot to do that morning. I’m the resident cook in the friend group- so on top of getting ready I made us all breakfast. Breakfast for a group takes awhile. I kind of wished they understood how difficult that was because I cooked 4 meals for them and it’s hard to manage time, cook for a group and get yourself ready.

They had me drive and then started complaining about my driving- this made me really upset and I am sure I sounded snappy cause I told them it was only a 6 minute drive. I even tried to fix the things they were complaining about and told them I was. Which probably sounded snappy. I’m sure I was my tone wasn’t the best- but tbh I getting really overly stimulated.

Now let’s get the cooking- Yes, I enjoy cooking and some of my friends were a great help. But I wish my friends understood it’s a lot to cook for 6 people and get ready.

One of my friends got really upset when I refuse to use an item she cut up cause she cut herself on the knife and I definitely thought I could see blood on pieces of it- she claimed there wasn’t anything there.

I feel like I was too snappy at my friends through out the weekend, but tbh I feel like I was put in situations that took me a little too close to the edge. I wish I had acted better cause I’m worried my attitude that was probably sassy and snappy could have ruined the weekend for them. I tried to make them feel appreciated and wrote them sweet notes about how much I appreciated and cared for them and gave it to them at the end of the trip.

This was a learning lesson, that maybe I need to act better when under stress and now I am worried about the wedding- I don’t wanna be a bridezilla and don’t wanna be stressed out during my wedding. I am even debating seeing if I could get ready separately from my bridal party cause I’m getting really bad anxiety of getting stressed out on the day. On top of this, we have some members of the friend group who don’t seem to work well together - and I am worried some of their energies might throw me off while getting ready.

So I am asking- am I the bridezilla ?