Is it bad to not being proud of being trans ?

It's the pride month so I feel a bit awkward to go to the pride of Paris and without being proud of being trans. I prefer to just be there as a gay man and not as a trans man... I don't even like to say that: I'm a trans man. I just want to be a boy and telling me I'm a trans boy feel like I'm not a boy ?

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