I’m 31-years old and I have no money. I am useless, and I don’t know how to improve my life.

I need money. Anything and everything that I wanna do costs money. Travel? Money. A car? Money. Hobbies? Money. Hell I can’t even walk in nature without needing to spend money buying a good pair of shoes lest I be in pain. Money, money, money. I need money. It has been on my mind so damn much because I’m always coming up short and I don’t know how to deal with it. I’m not living in abject poverty. By all accounts I’m pretty fortunate. But I don’t wanna live a life where anything and everything I wanna do requires saving up for years. I’m 31 now and at this rate I won’t have anything or have done anything by the time I’m too old to enjoy any of it. Hell, I could get hit by a bus and die. I don’t know. But I know I wanna do more. And to do so I need money. But how the hell do I make it? I gotta study. Gotta do something. But picking a career based only on money? I’ll end up killing myself before I retire. I’m not good at anything. I’m not interested in anything valuable. I’ve only ever been into creative things like writing but that dream is dead and gone. Tried it for ten years. My whole twenties dedicated to it. Nothing. Message recieved loud and clear. Hedonism is all I have left. But I can’t be a hedonist without money. FUCK I need money.