fuck this shit man

i got my license about 3 weeks ago now and i’ve only been driving the same road from home to work and the same gas station. i’ve gotten pretty comfortable with my work commute at the moment but sometimes things just go sooo terribly wrong
i will have to leave at 8:30 in the morning and pass an intersection on my way, absolutely dreadful.
i ended up misjudging and blocking the intersection due to traffic.
on my way home earned a honk for what reason i even decided to turn when the other person was i have no idea, got pretty close to hitting them too. just felt terrible and sat in my car in silence when i made it home.
also cant park for shit, i leave extra early when the parking lot is empty so no one has to witness my crooked fuckass parking skills and i can just drive through the next space in front of me
you know when people say that theres so many bad drivers on the road and to be careful, THATS ME!! i have been trying to hype myself up to drive a different route and to go somewhere on one of my days off and i just dont feel confident enough, i really dont want to hurt someone or damage anything. any advice feeling pretty crap about this.