i hate my laziness sometimes

16F. i’m a pretty lazy person. i don’t shower, shave, clean up my room, etc unless i absolutely have to. i just sit around. i don’t know if it’s a product of my depression or what. it doesn’t feel like it is, but i’m unsure.

anyway, the reason why i hate my laziness is because in the past it caused me to neglect my pets needs. i have a bearded dragon and i love her to death, but most of the time when i need to feed her i just don’t. she can go a freaking while without eating and be fine, so i just let the laziness take over. she’s fine right now, fed and happy. i just guess i can’t handle responsibilities like that consistently with my current mental state.

another time is when i neglected feeding my cats dry food when my mom asked. i usually do but this time i just didn’t. they would’ve been fine, and are fine. they were fed wet food the very next morning.

i can’t stop feeling like a bad person for my laziness. maybe it’s just my ocd attacking it. i dunno. i just hope i can stop thinking about it and try to not let my laziness stop me from taking care of my pets in the future.