Taking Breaks

My spouse insisted we take a break after our first medicated cycle failed. I knew they were right; I was spiraling very hard. But I wonder if it’s the right choice, as my cycles tend to be extremely long (45+ days because I don’t ovulate) I don’t use Letrozole (PCOS) and we only just now, nearly 18 months in, are getting treatment. We are both 32 and another year is half over so I can’t help but panic about losing yet another 2 months, possibly more.

I had to go back up on my antidepressants, that I worked so hard to taper off of in preparation for pregnancy because I’ve been so depressed. I just feel so defeated and hopeless for the future. Our whole move back home, to this neighborhood even, was to have children. I am terrified of the break making it closer to our reality as DINKs and having to move away a third time…

Just looking for reassurance that a break is actually helpful, because telling the doctor we were taking a break after one cycle felt really awful.