25F crazy chick

I’m a gooning addict.  An anal gooning addict lol. My sex drive is out of control.  I goon as much as I can get away with, even if it’s in public, at work, or risky situations. 

I come to Reddit to goon and be pushed.  Do riskier and riskier things.  Be sluttier and sluttier.  More and more degraded.  More and more ashamed and self-loathing.   More and more regretful.  More and more anal.  Brainwashed and hurt lol.  More and more reckless, use substances, whatever.  Treated worse and worse.

I need to find a man for a long term relationship who can handle my crazy, my lack of trust, and can guide my sex drive to extremes that ruin my life and make me miserable. Make me be immoral and self loathing.  My self image was distorted when I took an iq test and scored low. Im very anxious and mistrusting.