My parents would kill me

I (f19) have a hidden secret 2nd life

To start i want to explain a little bit about myself. My name is Kylie, im 19 and from the UK. Im studying illustration and graphics at University and mainly specialise in the digital arts , but over time I've had a rising urge , it started a bit ago , but now is the time I feel , I've always been into older pervy guys checking me out but the whole rise of the e-girl has made it so much more fun, seeing all these girls dolled up in Cosplay etc getting all that attention, I NEED TO BE THEM! I WANT TO BE LIKE THEM ! I'd change my hair , makeup , anything, I have dedication hehe, belle Delphine for example has done irreversible damage to this generation, especially mine \[ generation z \] , I have the casual goth kinda look about me and im 5ft 1 , so I have no idea who I'd even start cosplaying or anything, but I needed to get this off my chest and start making actions from this hehe x