A life doomed to lose

My life was destined to fail, and not just because of gender dysphoria. Due to my parents' poor upbringing, I am useless in practical life. They also chose the wrong field of study for me — mechanical engineering, even though I wanted to go to a business academy — and I was too afraid to change my major when I went to college. Furthermore, I rejected quite a few relationships before my transition. I was attractive to women; perhaps one of those relationships would have changed the course of my life, and I wouldn’t have gone through with the transition. Before my transition, I used to attract extroverted, energetic, and gorgeous women, but I rejected them and instead gravitated towards introverted and less attractive partners.