newly diagnosed 20f been in a manic episode for over a month now

It started on may 1 and i’m still feeling so euphoric, not as much as before but i feel like i’ve been in a completely different world. i’m was so used to waking up staying in bed as long as i could with a pit of deep sorrow. now everyday im excited when i wake up. i start thinking so quickly right when i wake up, even though i stay up late and my body naturally wakes up a few hours later. i’m so scared of how i will handle another crash. i remember my first manic episode i didn’t know what it was but it was nowhere near this intense and only lasted like 3 weeks. i’ve had hallucinations before i was diagnosed and was taking auvelity, im off that now obviously and on zyprexa to “take as needed” so like one in every three nights i take it if i really can’t sleep. ive been taking trazodone most nights to sleep and it works wonders. i was also just prescribed lamtrigine today and will start it tomorrow. how do you guys manage this condition? i’m gonna be moving out of my parents house soon and will be on my own. it feels like so much to take in; i really can’t believe i’ll have this condition for the rest of my life. i would’ve never expected to turn out bipolar as my family had no prior history. i’ve worried ive become used to feeling so good all the time how will i ever live with going back to the sadness?