Having trouble deciding which antidepressant, or if I should just go for a natural source

Hey everyone, the question to this post overall os wether I should try to get on a new medication, or try a natural way using things like Lions Mane, L-Theanine, Bacopa Extract, etc. Tho these natural remedies have helped, it is not easy to be consistent on, as for the cost of all these, and because of the convenience.

I’ve dealt with anxiety and depression for a long time. I’ve before used Prozac(20mg) for years, which I was somewhat okay on, but made me feel numb, careless, and sometimes lifeless. At one time I had a girlfriend and while being on it, I had no love or care for them in the world. Which I know wasn’t me. I now have a great girlfriend and don’t wish these feelings to come back, and make something happen I may later wish didn’t. It also caused sexual distinction, which I guess wasn’t the biggest deal but isn’t a great thing to have to deal with. I then about a year ago tried Zoloft, and I did not like how I felt. I quit that, abruptly unfortunately and I feel like it messed me up permanently since.. For the past 8 months I have had a complete loss of drive, motivation, confidence, energy, sexuality. I recently learned the word anhedonia, and finding out the definition I said holy cow, that’s me. I have lost all passion for everything. I don’t want to do anything I love and know I care about. I’ve gotten to the point in recent months where I had such little drive I wouldn’t get up to use the bathroom when I needed because I didn’t want to. Lately I feel like I’ve come to rock bottom. It’s affected my work life, I haven’t worked in months and have lost my past jobs from being fired or having to leave due to mental health. As said before I’ve lost confidence, drive, self worth, and reason, to this world I know doesn’t have meaning. Generally I work and travel the world and country(US) and it is my passion. I have lost that sense of me due to my mental health and not working. I believe I need serotonin balance and also feel like I’m dopamine shot. I recently read on Wellbutrin and it seems like something I need but also the side effects of aggression worries me. I know it was not smart of me but when I got off Zoloft I went cold turkey and I got really aggressive and had homicidal type ideations, so reading that Wellbutrin make cause that worries me. Though I do know everything can have some side effects, and not all are promised, the thought of me being like that again scares me.

I believe this is the best information I can give about myself, I know there’s no perfect answer anyone could know or that can be told. But just looking for recommendations and if anyone has been through this what helped them. Thank you