I want a stalker

Hi 🥰 I’ve been on here before. I deleted my account then made a new one. I feel like I’m so alone. It’s probably my BPD but I wish I had a stalker. It seems all the people in here are girls that are super young. I’m 33F and feel old af wishing for a male stalker. I want to be obsessed over and to be loved so bad they’d do anything to be with me. But alas it seems I am devoted to fictional stalker men. Anyone else feel like this ? Am I just an idiot that needs to delete again? Idk.