I look better than ever at 26, but I’m ashamed of me being a late bloomer. How to ignore my age?

So I grew up the typical sheltered kid with crazy parents. Basically, I was on a high dose of antidepressants since a young age due to panic attacks and anxiety that came from my dysfunctional household. During HS, I was a full-blown mental-cel. I did get choosing signals from girls and whatever, but I mostly kept to myself due to all the awful things going on in my head. It’s a little hard to socialize when you’re high on antidepressants all the time. They basically numbed my brain. My life was a living hell until about 23 when I decided to finally leave my parent’s basement to go to a bar and club alone. It was easily the best decision I ever made.

As time went on, my life did a 180, I made a high value friend and I even made out with girls and got laid a few times. Of course, I still struggle and get awkward but idk. I never had much of a social life either growing up because I was literally never interested. When you’re high on antidepressants all the time, you’re basically OK with living a shitty and miserable life. You’re completely numb to it. Now I’m not bashing them, they can be useful but they definitely were NOT in my case.

I’m 6’4”, jacked, white, clear skin, full head of hair (crew cut), straight teeth, and a kick ass jawline.

I actually get pretty solid success when I go out, the last time I went out was a few months ago and I almost banged someone’s wife at a club (didn’t do it, it’s disrespectful but we did heavily make out). Some girls throw themselves at me in the club and even the owners of spots shake my hand when I enter their bar as if they’re thanking me. I swear to god, some girl called me “genetically superior” one time at a bar.

It’s a FARCRY from who I was when I was 23 and literally shaking at the thought of going out alone. Problem is, I already feel kinda old and lame. I go to some clubs and bars and I see 21 year old frat-bros and some 30 year olds who didn’t get the memo that they’re not 21 anymore (in the way they dress and act, they’re not old). It’s like I wish I had this in my teens and early 20s because I spent a long time alone. I finally unlocked a lot of my anxiety and traumas which make me much more confident. Yeah, even a guy like ME get’s insecure.

I guess what I’m getting at is, I feel insecure about my age because it feels like I’m finally getting experience but I feel I have the experience of maybe a 17 year old. Made out a handful of girls and got laid a few times. I don’t know how much longer I have until it becomes weird and lame like I should be taking life seriously instead of staying out until 3 AM. That all adds up, you know.

TLDR: I’m 26 and look as good and as confident I ever have been, but I’m mourning my lost youth and wondering if I should bother with trying to “catch up” when others are likely growing up and exiting this lifestyle.