Is there something wrong with me?

I’ve always kind of found it hard to be attracted to someone just off looks or personality but for some reason recently during some like random argument online I lost pretty much. I had misunderstood the original argument and I was faulty with my own argument based on that. I had admitted my wrong and she had been nice about it and now I feel inferior intellectually but for some reason I feel really turned on because of that. I actually do kind of want to be degraded because of my inferior mental capacity