I am constantly reminded that I am inferior

I saw a post of what six years of skill development in a particular art form looks like. An art form that I gave up on because my ADHD-like symptoms made it too difficult to pursue. This was just one more upset on top of a significant lack of stability and a whole host of other negative feelings.

It's miserable. I cannot stand this life.

Then, the creator of a series I like, which uses very simple art, was shown to be very capable at art. Yet another thing that made me jealous and made me feel that the comfort I get from that series is now complicated further.

Holy shit I'm pathetic.