Autism + Poverty is a bad combo (My Life Story

I am 24 M, born in a low-income family and living in a small-rural town of a third-world country (the most populated one).

Ever since childhood, I knew there was something wrong with me. I was very different from the other kids.

I hated chaos, loud noises, and social interactions. I was the most shy-introverted guy who just kept to himself.

Later while in my teenage years, I realized that I have both Autism & ADHD.

Everything started making sense as to why I am so unproductive, socially distant and weird.

But, the real issue began when I reached my early 20s.

My father is a laborer. He earns around $150 a month out of which $60 is just for house rent.

We are a family of 4 living in a highly compact one-room house with no private space.

For an Autistic person, this lack of private space and consistent noise is already a hell but wait this is nothing.

Now that I am an adult man, my parents want me to get a job even though I have told them a thousand times that I am disabled and cannot do a job.

And, by Job I mean a blue collar job where workers are exploited for 12hrs shifts in 50° C with minimum pay.

My family has been poor since the beginning, so I could never afford to get a college degree.

I taught myself English by watching English movies and youtube videos.

But, since I have turned 24, and my father is getting older, they are forcing me into 12-hour a day slavery.

They torture me everyday, shout at me, even call priests to check what’s wrong with me?

They are rural-villagers, they do not have the mental capacity to understand ADHD, Autism etc.

It's not my fault that I was born in a poor family with a disability like Autism.

Still, I have tried a lot of methods to earn money online because only that is physically possible for me but I have consistently failed due to lack of capital.

I do not even have funds to buy a domain name let alone establish a business.

Things are getting ugly too fast, I cannot handle the stress and survival pressure anymore.

Everyday I wake up and see chaos, fights and toxicity around me.

There are days when I only eat twice a day because we are too poor to even afford rations.

I have never been to a big city, never taken a flight, never experienced freedom.

All my life, I have only ever known is survival mode. It's a living hell.

And, I am stuck in a paradox, I just need a few hundred dollars to start my online business and escape to safety.

But, to collect that capital, I will need to work at least for a year for 12 hrs a day shifts in the worst conditions possible.

And, I will choose to die from hunger rather than going through that chaotic slavery with my over-stimulated Autistic system.

So, guys please tell me what I should do. I cannot withstand this daily suffering anymore.

I just want to run away, far from these toxic people, chaotic streets and loud neighbourhoods.

Please help me escape this hell. 🙏