Intense reversion

Ill try and be quick. Intense reversion after 25 years - daily mass - daily holy hour (over 100 days ) - rosary - divine Mercy -deep devotion to the Eucharist and The Passion. Graces - profound consolations.. today after a moment of deep clarity doubt, questioning, anxiety, feeling crazy, wanting to run, wondering if this walk is just too hard?

Desolation? Warfare? Or am I actually nuts? 🤣​

I have an appt with a spiritual director on the 17th, but this rollar coaster is a lot.

Plan is to NOT change course. Still went to my holy hour this evening tearful -offering it all up for my confessor. ​mass in the morning.

Pray for me, please 🙏

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