Love language

I know that one VERY specific love language is just off the table for her, she’s just not interested. I respect that. So I suffer in sacrifice and she knows it. She doesn’t seem to know what love language she needs either. So you know what I do? All of them. I give her gifts, I do acts of service, I plan dates and make a serious effort for genuine quality time, I give verbal affirmations and compliments, hell, I even give physical touch in a non-intimate way. I just put in so… much… damn… effort and it feels like she doesn’t care even a little bit about whatever love languages I may be receptive to.

I’m of the opinion that actions speak louder than words and when the only evidence that we’re actually in a relationship comes from words and no action… how am I supposed to feel? I ask her what I am to her: “my lover” she says. But where is the evidence? Where is the fucking evidence? All I hear are empty words because I’m the only one focused on the relationship and I just yearn for deeper connection with my “lover”. God help me this is pathetic. Rant over, thanks.