I’m confused by his actions

My ex broke up with me on the 24th of last month, we never had any fights or anything bad happen, the relationship was so full of love but then he said he felt “too numb to care about anything”, that I have too much love to give when he can’t give the amount back at this moment, and that he thinks he’s not in a spot to be in a relationship right now.

I cried…a lot and to this day I still dream about us and wake up disappointed that this is happening. I miss him so much and I want him back so badly. We agreed to be friends, that same night he broke up with me I made a dumb decision to cope by using alcohol then messaged him, he simply apologised and I told him goodnight. The next morning I apologised for texting like that and we hadn’t spoken after.

Now on the 27th just two days after we last spoke he reached out asking how I am and I was honest saying I’m still upset but I’m ok, we spoke a little and then didn’t speak at all for the rest of the day. The day right after I decided to message and we spoke a little again, usually we would speak all throughout the day so I was really hoping we would slowly get back to that.

Now three days had passed after that and I remembered he mentioned a month back that he was going camping over the weekend. Three days passed and he messaged me yesterday with a photo of a big cauldron of stew and just said “stew” I found it cute and silly and mentioned I remembered him mentioning going camping and asked about how the entire trip was, he answered and it was once again a short convo

That same day but later, I remembered that this month is men’s mental health month and I figured it’s good to send him some good wishes, I sent it a lil late in the day so he thanked me this morning and we didn’t speak after that

I saw the backrooms movie is out and I stupidly thought to ask him if he’s seen the trailer and that it looked cool, it’s been hours and he never responded😭i can’t even tell if I’ve been left on read because I’m on iOS and he’s on Android and for some reason since yesterday my phone only sends my messages in sms and his in rcs so I can’t see when he’s typing or when he reads anything I say

He would’ve responded by now so I fear he straight up ignored me which is…confusing…because he’s been reaching out so obviously he wants to talk but at the same time I unfortunately feel like I’m a burden even when it’s him starting convos

Maybe it was a mistake starting a convo on something that could lead to us meeting up and maybe he doesn’t want to but idk he could just say something