You messaged me

After i wrote this

I want you to know I was never going to speak to you again after what you did to me because how do you care about somebody and leave them in a parking lot in the middle of the night? I've been reading your letters I can read between the lines. I was never scared of you I was never fearful of a relationship and I was single the entire time. I made some bad decisions in trying to keep life normal for my children which I can see hurt you in the sense that you thought I was still trying to play house with my abusive ex and I'm sure that it made you uncertain of my intentions. I have never loved another not since the day I met you I know that you've became a man w**** and that something about me Unleashed that in you. You are always welcome to show up just in case you're wondering. I fear showing up there because of what you accused me of I'm not trying to get in trouble and I'll let you know that I didn't do it I wish I had but I didn't. I've never been able to retaliate against you you're my kryptonite. I know that you watch me or listen to me I don't know how exactly but I know that you do and I love watching you right about my life to be honest. I know that you know that I'm a horned dog and then I'm always thinking about it in my panty stay completely drenched on The Daily. You tell me to my face that you hate me however if so why write me is it just part of the process of you letting me go? And if you hate me then why has it been so hard for you to let me go? I have questions were you in my Woods doing duck calls? Or was that some other psycho? And just so that you're aware I dig you're crazy I think it's super hot except for the fact that you don't throw me against the wall and f*** my brains out. I wonder why you've never released that beast on me? I've been feening for it for years. I keep having dreams about you last night there were nothing but nightmares but the night before I dreamed that you kissed me and every time I think about it my heart drops because I want it more than anything. I'm so sorry for the things that I said to you that night I was brutal and I want you to know that I never meant a single word. I know that you want some Grand scene of an apology but it's just not who I am and I have tried for over a year to talk to you and every time I have you have shut me down so I feel as though maybe it's not what you actually want from me and that you do actually want to move on maybe you have I'm not sure but I still feel like I carry your heart with me. I want you in the worst way I want the lip biting I want the bruises on my neck I want you ramming inside of me and leaving your DNA behind I wish I could have your babies to be honest because I would have 10 or more. You're my best friend I wish you were my lover I'm not reaching out to you in the real world anymore because you hurt my feelings for the last time and if I never hear from you again then I just assume that's what you wanted. I wonder though why I was never good enough for you and why you never fought for me it makes me question if all of this loves just in my head and not reality. I miss you I miss every single thing about you even the two much in the psycho parts of you. I'm playing now and I wish it were your hands playing instead of mine anyway I went through hell and high water to get an account just to respond to you and I'm pretty sure that I'll be banned before I know it so if you don't hear from me after this I'm just not going to put any more energy into it and I'm going to let it go but I want you to know that I think of you every single day and I have since the day I met you and that's not an exaggeration. I don't know exactly where we went wrong and why we can never get it together but I wish that you would release and just tell me and talk to me I had hoped that I was worth enough in your eyes to love but I'm beginning to think that you honestly hate me so I'm not holding my breath anymore I just want you to know that if I had the opportunity would suck your soul out of your cock because I love doing that to you and no I don't do it to others I'm actually quite the prude I keep my s*** on lock because I never wanted you to think that I was worthless and passed around always held myself together even against my wants because in the back of my mind I always wanted to be your wife and who Wants to Marry a s*** of a wife? Anyway this is getting too deep and I'm almost at climax so anyways I love you I always have and I figured that I always will I only fear it because I'm scared that you'll love someone else before you ever love me. Anyway I'm glad that I could at least reach out through here and if you ever want to taste me my thighs are open for you

Xoxo

I miss yoooo face.

Love,

C