I hate my ugly face and disgusting body

I just hate being ugly my whole life people have felt the need to point out my ugly features, almost on impulse, like they are just sharing their thoughts out loud, not even with ill intent, including my family and closest friends. Why can’t beautiful people keep their mean thoughts to themselves like I have my whole life? Even makeup doesn’t make me look better. I wish I had enough money for plastic surgery.

My body is naturally ugly too, even tho I try so hard to look good. Why couldn’t I have just been born beautiful, why why why? I hate myself.