I miss having dinner with you

My life is so empty without you. Dati yung simpleng buhay ko, ang saya saya ko dahil andun ka. You get home from work and gym, and we'll have dinner together.

I'll either buy take out on the way, or you do. Or if you're craving something then we'll plan to cook it. We take turns. If you cook, I'll do the dishes and vice versa. There were plenty of kisses to go around between us while we do this.

We would put on a show, or a YouTube video while we eat. We laugh, we talk about how the food is good. I'll make sure to thank you if ikaw yung nagluto, I always appreciate you. You do the same if it was me. We talk about our day, I'm always excited to hear about drama from your work place or shenanigans from when you're at the gym.

Tapos magrerelax ka na, either by playing a game or watching more youtube videos. Sometimes we'll play together, sometimes I'll just lie down on your lap and watch you play. I'll ask you questions and make you yap about the game you play.

After noon, liligo ka na and get ready for bed. We'll brush our teeth together, maybe shower together. We get a little frisky, we kiss a lot. We always kiss a lot. Maybe we end up making love if we aren't too tired for the day.

Hihiga ka na sa kama and I'll start working my remote job with my laptop, while I'm beside you. I'll kiss your forehead and tell you good night. You fall asleep in 3 minutes, I always found it amazing. You snore pretty loudly. I've learned to find it endearing too while I work. It's like my white noise.

I log off work at 3 AM, snuggle into your sleepy self. You never remember when I snuggle with you after my shift, I guess you're always just half awake. But you always hug me back and pull me into your arms every single time. Always.

Now I wake up alone. It's been 3 months. It's 3 PM. I can't get out of bed. I haven't been able to get out of bed for the last 3 hours.

I eat dinner alone every night.

Sometimes I just won't eat at all.