Noises are torture

I struggle with noise SO BAD. It's legit affecting my life because I can't even sleep well or do anything at all without having a mini breakdown.

I have tried earplugs but they hurt my ears and it doesn't really work because they make me hear my own blood pressure and heart beat and that also really annoys me and big headphones don't stop the noise enough to be effective, I feel like I am going insane.

Everything annoys me, it's like every noise is something drilling a hole in my brain, even my own heart beating is keeping me awake at night or my own breathing.

Sometimes I really wish I was deaf or had some way to just turn off my ears because there's never silence there's always some kind of noise I just want to cry at this point lol