I’m tired of my life

I’m so damn sick of living this life. I work full time and have nothing to show for it. Im autistic and don’t even have the means of getting support for it because getting a diagnosis is too expensive. I’m 32 and live with my birth family because living on your own is too expensive. Making friends is impossible nowadays because nobody has time and I can’t drive. I’ve never had a partner and most women don’t even want to deal with men anymore.

I don’t get any fulfillment out of my life and sometimes I wish I just didn’t have to live anymore, but I can’t die because my family needs me.

I have nothing of my own that I’ve earned, just a family that I was born into. I don’t have my own home, just the one my parents bought.

I’m so sick of it. I go to therapy twice a week, I’m on medication for my depression and anxiety but it doesn’t fix how little I get out of life. All I can do is get absorbed in fiction to forget about my pathetic life.