Whatever happens, happens

I recently got into anime. I watched Death Note first, which was very engaging. I was never bored, but it felt kind of empty. I didn't really like the characters, and after finishing the show, I didn't get that sad feeling where you have to say goodbye to characters you love and accept that the story is over and you can't be a part of that world anymore.

Right after finishing Death Note, I watched Cowboy Bebop. I was a little worried I wouldn't like it since some people said the story and characters were lacking, but I fell in love with the show. Right now, I only have the finale left, and I've been procrastinating on watching it because I don't want the story to end. I don't want to say goodbye to the characters I love.

I don't want to be dramatic, but I feel like this show changed me, at least a little. I resonated so much with the characters. On the surface, they're cool, confident, and hilarious, but they all have difficult pasts that come back to haunt them. They remind me of people around me, and they remind me of myself.

I'm not super knowledgeable about nihilism, but I think I understand the general idea. I think nihilism is definitely one of the themes of the show, and maybe stoicism too. But it isn't doom-and-gloom nihilism. It's more like hopeful nihilism, which I realized is something that really speaks to me.

Slaughterhouse-Five is another book I love, and I think it has a similar feeling. You accept that bad things will happen. You don't constantly look back at them or dwell on them. You make peace with them and keep moving forward.