Divorced twice by 32

I married my first husband at 24 after dating for 4 years and was completely blindsided when he left me for another woman 3 months after our wedding. I took the time to grieve and forgive during the pandemic, and later met someone else. We also dated for 4 years before getting married and have now been married for 1 year. I’m filing for divorce again because of his severe alcoholism, porn addiction, and possible infidelity.

How could I have made back to back terrible choices? What is wrong with me?! I don’t know anyone else in my social circle who has divorced, let alone twice. I have a great career, social life, active lifestyle, and yet I continue to choose men who are completely the opposite. The worst part is that I still love my husband deeply, but am forced into leaving. Even his family (whom I adore) are encouraging me to get out as they’ve seen the destruction caused by their son.

I am in therapy to work through this, but would love to hear if anyone has similar stories. Anyone else have a bad “picker?” I’m too embarrassed to share another failure with my friends and family.