Controlled relapse?

So 3 months ago I quit drinking and I relapsed a few days ago (sober for 4 days now). There was not even a real trigger, but there are some things I don’t understand. So I wasn’t blackout drunk and I had some ability to control my drinking, because there were nights I literally only drank one drink. I went to work, did all my chores etc. But I literally have the same feeling like it was in the depths of my addiction. All day long I think about drinking, plan on where to buy alcohol, and negotiate 24/7 with my brain, this did not happen while I was sober for 3 months. But people always say when an alcoholic starts drinking he cannot stop. But I was able to only drink 1-2 drinks in my “relapse” (but 3 nights in a row). So I have a hard time figuring out if I have control, or if I don’t. Am I an alcoholic or do I only have an alcohol problem. I’m kind of lost.