I don't Know What

Can anyone here have ever seen the same video as the one I saw back then?

So recently, for some reason, I remembered a nightmare I once saw. Back when I was a kid, I was basically addicted to porn videos, and I couldn't stop watching them. At that time, while I was browsing for porn videos on a certain website, I was drawn to a thumbnail that showed a girl in a video.

When I clicked on the video, for some reason, I was redirected to another website. The background, which was initially white, suddenly turned black, and there was a video with a title consisting of numbers — I had no idea what it meant. In the thumbnail, there was a girl who looked like she was a teenager, around 15–17 years old. She had white hair, was tied up, and her mouth was bandaged. There were also several men with their faces covered, together with the girl. I actually thought, why does this thumbnail look different from the porn thumbnail I just clicked? But back then, I just thought, well, maybe it’s some other porn video.

So without any suspicion, I clicked on the video. This is where my memory might be hazy, and I’m not entirely sure. At the beginning of the video, several men were talking to each other, and that part was quite long — around 5 to 7 minutes. I’m not sure what they were saying, but if I remember correctly (and my memory might be wrong), they seemed to be speaking Russian. At the start, the video only had conversations I didn’t understand, so I skipped through a lot of it. Then, around the 10- or 13-minute mark, the men started assaulting the girl — hitting her head, groping her chest, even sniffing and licking her body.

At that point, I thought this really was just porn, but I was wrong. By the middle of the video, a man brought a whip and a baseball bat. And as you might guess, they tortured the girl with the whip and the bat while she was still tied up. I don’t know how many times they did it, but I remember very clearly her screams of pain. Eventually, a man took a chair, forced the girl down onto it, and tied her up again with rope so she couldn’t move. Not long after, another man came in carrying a garden fork. At first, he just talked with one of the others — I didn’t understand any of it — but soon after, he walked over, stood in front of the girl, and stabbed her eye with the garden fork. Oh my god, I got goosebumps just hearing her scream, and even now, I’m still too terrified to remember it. There was a lot of blood, and the girl screamed so loudly that I ended up pausing the video, deleting my browsing history, and immediately going to bed, hoping I could forget it. But unfortunately, now I’m remembering this horrible thing again.

To be honest, I’m not even sure if my memory is accurate — whether I really watched that video back then — but for some reason, I still remember it, and it haunts me. Especially the garden fork — now I have a kind of trauma whenever I see one. That’s why I’m asking: does anyone here know or have seen the video I saw back then? Or is this all just a false memory? Please help me so I can sleep peacefully again.