Everyone is telling me to go to therapy and I know I need it, but the feeling of becoming someone's walking paycheck while giving them full access to my trauma is terrifying and stops me every time.

There is absolutely no way I wont be judged, there is absolutely no way I will be magically cured overnight, there is absolutely no way i could just trust someone I just met with my backlog and privacy, and worst of all there's no way they'll do it without making me a step ladder to reach their monthly target..