Any late diagnosed autistic women who can relate to me?

Recently my therapist brought up that I might have autism and I can consider getting an assessment. I'm 30 years old, I seem like a successful person who functions normally from the outside but internally I feel like I'm barely surviving. I'd like to know experiences of high masking autistic women who were diagnosed late. To be honest I'm very shocked to hear that from my therapist, I've never thought about the possibility of autism before. I live in a country where autism isn't known much, I've only seen severe cases. My therapist said female autism can look very different. My internal narrative is so used to blaming myself for struggling in life that now considering a possibility that there is an explanation for that is overwhelming. I will keep searching and take things slow for assessment to digest everything.

-I seem to have very low energy compared to an average person without a medical reason. Especially after I spend a day outside (even if I don't work and just do a fun activity) I feel extremely drained both mentally and physically.

-I've always felt like something is different/wrong with me.

-I've always struggled with socializing, I hate socializing and it drains my energy so much. I prefer having very few deep and close bonds and not interacting with anyone else. I'm completely paralyzed in groups and I'm unable to interact so I stay quiet. My entire life teachers, relatives, classmates, coworkers etc complained that I'm too quiet. I understand social norms, however I feel like I lack natural instinct to fit in those. I'm very bad at small talk.

-I notice small changes and patterns about specific things which others don't seem to notice/pay attention.

-I have very low emotional regulation. When something unexpected/inconvenient happens, I cry and feel intense emotions even if it's objectively a minor/unimportant thing. I'm very emotional and sensitive person and I get upset too easily. As a child, my teacher called my parents because I cried for hours because my pencil broke. I still struggle with emotional regulation.

-I've always struggled with open ended tasks and function a lot better with clear rules and instructions.

-I hate eye contact. I have memories from childhood where I was forced to make eye contact by my mom. It made me feel very distressed.