I fantasize about giving my nerdy virgin friend his first time

This guy is such a dweeb. He’s an old friend and I love him dearly. He’s autistic and awkward. He actually got more attention in high school, maybe cause he was skinnier, but he never lost his v card and hasn’t been on any dates in our adult lives.

Well about a year ago, we started getting a little closer. We were in a DND game together and our characters for some reason just had insane chemistry. After that, I started noticing that he would offer things sort of awkwardly, like if I said I was tired he would say I could lean on him if I wanted. Saying it I pass out from the heat he’ll catch me. Always offering to initiate contact but never doing it outright. I was always too awkward back to take him up on it but I always thought about it afterwards, wondering what it would’ve felt like. Then I started imagining more…

You knew the kind of nerd who just lights up, and gets overly enthusiastic about the things they love? Just giddy and unashamed, sometimes even overwhelmed? Well, that’s what he is. And so I know that gleam in his eyes when he’s so happy, so excited about something. And I found myself one day, imagining him looking just like that, as I gave him his first time.

For some reason the thought of someone who is not so…“traditionally” sexy, with his hard dick out, all needy, is doing something to my brain. Like something about this guy who presents himself as so sexless, doing something dirty, just feels so naughty. Cause he’s such a sweet guy and he just has zero, like, negative game. He’s so fucking awkward. I’m jsut imaging him so nervous, like blushing and stumbling over his words even as his dick gets harder and harder. I wanna blow his fucking mind and make him look at me like I’m a fucking goddess. God it’s actually kind of crazy how much I want it.

I know he wouldn’t let his ego get in the way. I know he wouldn’t try to put on some show of masculinity, being some kind of sex master, when we both know well and good that I’ve fucked and he hasn’t. I secretly hope that he’s jerked off to me. I hope he’s a massive fucking pervert under all that awkwardness. I honestly think we will fuck someday but probably not for awhile cause of life circumstances, so now I’m evily hoping my poor friend stays a virgin all those years just so that I can still be the first one >:)