I feel jealous AND insecure whenever I open reddit/ youtube cause of those foreign students

I avoid opening it but whenever I open it, in my breaks, all I see is some european/american kid living his life in one way or the another, hanging out, enjoying life, exploring stuff, trying new things yada yada.

This is so irritating where I am preparing for an exam for like 2? years, now a dropper, sitting all day in my room grinding my arse off, and I have nothing in my hands.

They are doing so many things in their day, no stress of any stuff, living in the best every thing. Maybe I am being ignorant to their own struggles but I bet it's not the same for them and us. We are fighting like rats for such a small pool of seats unlike them, their is no one single 'best' college. Isn't it sad?

Correct me if I am wrong, but they have to work significantly less than us to get in a college ranked higher than us. I wanna try so much stuff, I feel like I am missing out on them:(