So I finaly returned to the undead asylume (loony bin) out of desperation to change ANYTHING, because I have reached the bottom yet again, and one of the psychiatrists that work with me gave me some hope, she told me I have great base to be a woman, that my face is feminine enough and my frame is not large, she even complimented my hair and talked about puting me on hrt, I feelt kinda warm inside after a long time, but then later that day, my main psychiatrist who leads the transgender cabinet at this hospital basicaly told me "you are not even shure you want to transition, you must first accept your own body before you can decide, also everyone in your family is against it and changes are ireversible..."

Like, BITCH, I AM MISERABLE BECAUSE OF MY DISGUSTING MOID BODY!!! Yet she denies me my hrt, I basicaly came here for nothing, nothing will change and I will stay miserable for the rest of my life because of THAT ONE BITCH, at this point I will just ask her to perscribe me a tons of anti depresantss and anti psychotics so I would spend the rest of my life as a fucking hollow, staring at the wall and wasting away while my family takes care of me like some retarded baby

Kill me or release me, parasite

No, just give me a lobotomy already, I cant take this anymore

Only left is the abyss