Loss of a friendship

Over the past 9 months, I became very close friends with someone. We talked almost every day, spent a lot of time together, and they became a significant part of my daily life.

At the same time, I was dealing with a lot of stress from work and other areas of my life. Looking back, I wasn't handling everything as well as I thought I was. My emotions were becoming harder to manage, and I know there were times when I wasn't at my best.

Recently, the friendship came to an end. I know I made mistakes and I take responsibility for my part in what happened. I also understand that everyone experiences situations differently and may have their own reasons for ending a friendship.

I'm not posting this to blame anyone or get validation. I'm trying to understand how other people with BPD have dealt with losing someone who had become a major part of their daily life.

What I'm struggling with most is the sudden absence. I keep thinking about old conversations, routines, inside jokes, and memories. It's strange how someone can be part of your everyday life for so long and then suddenly not be there anymore.

For those of you with BPD, how did you cope with losing a close friendship? What helped you move forward? Did the constant thoughts about the person eventually become less intense?

I'd appreciate hearing from people who have been through something similar and made it to the other side