Starting to feel like I’ll never find have a meaningful relationship.

I dated a bit throughout my early twenties, nothing lasted longer than a few weeks. I got into a really rough relationship for a few years and I’ve had a hard time putting myself out there since.

I’ve always struggled with body image and feeling like I’m not enough for a lot of guys. But lately it seems to be worse. I’ve been trying to put myself out there but I can’t seem to get anywhere.

Online has gotten me no where so I’ve been trying to put myself out there in person more. I went out new years and started talking to a few guys but I was too shy to initiate more.

Then I met a guy in my town who I tried to flirt with for a couple months. Most of the time I could barely manage more than a few sentences trying to talk to him. I haven’t seen him since March now so I’m assuming I messed up that one too. I reached out about a thing for my work a little while ago. He seemed happy to hear from me but nothing ever came of it. I’ve thought about reaching out to ask him out but I’m getting stuck in my head about it

I know I have a lot of work I need to do on myself but today, in this moment, it feels like a lot and I’m having a hard time with it. Any advice/support would be really nice